And Sometimes... Sometimes It's Just Something You Have to Do.

I'm about to do one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. 

I don't want to do it. 

I don't want to do it because I know it's going to hurt someone.

I think that's why I took so long before I did it...

Except for, I probably just hurt them way more than I would have originally hurt them.

FAIL. 

Obviously, on my part.

And as I'm sitting here in the moments before doing this deed, I'm thinking of all the things I'm going to miss, about how my own fears and insecurities have fueled me, about how I just want to be with Jesus.

I know that Jesus is big enough to catch us. 

I know that nothing is bigger than Him.

And I know that the person I'm going to inevitably cause pain did NOT see it coming...

I also know that in the long run, this is the best decision for both of us.

I'm so SO thankful that God forgets the past, that the past is wiped away because the blood of Jesus cleanses. I don't deserve the mercies I am constantly given; yet, God chooses to give them anyway. When He looks at me, He sees Jesus. And that is awesome. It's more than enough to bring me to my knees.

DEEP BREATH.

I can do this.

Somehow. 

Jesus, give me words to speak.

Catch my dear friend; they're going to need you a little more than normal very shortly.

And I know I've shed thousands of tears today.

Thank you for being my strength, oh God.

With ALL the love You've given me to give~