Lately, I've been feeling off.

There are many moments I want to crawl in a hole.

There are many moments I want to run away and never return.

I feel nearly overwhelmed at least at some small point almost every day.

And that's not like me. 

Not anymore, anyway.

And I don't know what to do about it.

It's like I'm constantly doing one thing or another.

There are constantly obstacles to overcome.

I'm spinning in circles.

Even the slow seems fast.

I think sometimes people don't think I struggle.

(Because I'm stable and clam.)

And sometimes, I go along with that fanciful lie.

But I struggle just as much as anyone.

(I just keep it in check a little better than most.)

Especially right now.

Caught between this moment and another.

Waiting for life to spin on it's own but still trying to chase it. 

*sigh*

This moment is hard.

I don't know exactly how to deal.

I just have to keep pushing forward, keep living in this moment.

Somehow, I'll make it through.