Ever thought you were doing okay, even pretty well at something only to learn that you're actually not as hot as you thought?
Yeah.
That's happened to me recently.
Today, actually.
This afternoon I went to my third voice lesson.
I kind of accidentally signed up for them about a month ago after being referred by a friend.
I sort of think I was duped into counseling sessions cleverly disguised as voice lessons. :)
All joking aside, I'm super glad to have the voice coach I do.
She sees things in me that I've buried - both weaknesses and strengths.
The roughly four (mostly uncomfortable) hours I've spent with her so far have been a sight to see.
(The reason they've been a bit uncomfortable has everything to do with my insecurities, not at all to do with her.)
She has me do some silly things... over and over again (until I start to get them right).
Anyway, enough background, today she said something to me that struck home.
"I don't know why, but your confidence is rock bottom; I'm sure there's some reason. You're even uncomfortable going all for it during warm ups. Now I know why you said you wanted to work on confidence."
And all this time I've been thinking I'm doing alright.
Now, I don't walk around all insecure or anything, but I also don't walk around with confidence and boldness much of the time.
Truthfully, comparing myself three years ago to myself today, my confidence is sky high... but I've still got a lot of growing to do. I know that, in theory, but I think I kind of let myself forget that. I thought I was doing alright and was believing that alright was okay. Which is why I think it surprised me so much to hear that earlier.
Confidence.
Boldness.
(Yes, like a {lion}.)
This is what I'm getting ready to learn a lot about.
Aye..